Beauty

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Still working to be kind to myself

Lately, I have been feeling a little more self conscious of my body and appearance. I weighed myself a few days ago and was a few pounds heavier than last year. I have been telling myself “you cant eat this because you are eating clean to lose weight.” But I realized that as life changes so do bodies. Last year, was the most traumatizing year of my life. My weight loss last year was due to life stressors, confusion, depression, and unhappiness. This year I am in a completely different place. I am happy with myself and what I have created for myself. So yes, I gained a few pounds, but I also gained acceptance and patience with myself. I think that matters more.

*Takes a bite of vegan oatmeal raisin cookie☺️*

As always,

Thank you for ready

~Janay

Being in your 20’s

*Take a deep inhale…………….. and exhale*

So, like many people I had an idea of what my twenties would look like. I used to say “I’m going to spend my years in college exploring and getting to know myself.” 👀👀LOL

I did not get to know myself. I spent most of my time trying to stay above the water with my classes and trying to deal with a mental health disorder that I didn’t recognize that I suffered with until now. I did not get to know myself better, instead I drifted farther away. If you were to ask my 18 year old self about my 20’s, I would have said “twenties is the time to prepare for my “serious adult life” in my thirties.” Now, I would say there’s no timeline. There’s no specific time to explore yourself. There’s no specific time to “have fun or get all the fun out.” There’s no specific time period where you have to have everything figured out. Also don’t feel guilty for re-evaluating your goals and values. As we grow and change so do our goals and priorities.

I am saying this because social media can be harsh and make you feel as though you are “late” to do something/achieving a goal. I sometimes have the feeling that I am missing out on something, but I’m not. I have been focusing on myself and taking steps to better my life, so I’m not missing out.

I’m not missing out on a better version of myself.

*Tip: Whenever I feel like I am having FOMO (fear of missing out), I sing future song Jersey lyrics (🎵you do what you want when you poppin🎵)

You can also slow down and reflect. Ask yourself “Are these thoughts positively serving me? Let go of what no longer serves you.

As always,

Thank you for reading

Janay

A Little Reset

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I decided to spice things up on my blog with a video. This video is a compilation of clips from my one week break. I didn’t do anything super special, but I did enjoy having time to relax. I spent most of my time by myself, which was nice. I also got a chance to catch up with some friends and family.

The main point of creating my blog was to be open and real about things that are going on in my life. I want others to be able to relate and understand that they are not alone in whatever they are going through. I hope that you can see my heart and personality in this video and my other blog post.

As always,

Thank you for watching and reading

~Janay